Ever since I was younger I've always dreaded the big milestones. Leaving primary school, starting intermediate, the start of high school, getting a job and learning to drive. So when the time came for graduation to roll around it was no surprise to me that slightest thought of leaving everything I've ever known behind brought me anxiety. I'm not a big fan of big change - never have been and more than anything I just wished I wouldn't have to leave everyone and everything behind. I didn't want to lose the people and the fun that I'd been having for past five years, they'd made me so happy and even though we'd had our ups and downs I loved every moment of it. Saying goodbye to everything I'd ever known was not something I was excited for in the slightest.
Sometimes however, I feel like God sits up in heaven and laughs to himself when he sees us stressing about things such as these - big and small - because he has it all sorted before we even have to experience them. He knows it's all going to be okay, the anxiety these things give us is unnecessary because He will never take us through something that isn't essential to his master plan or that won't benefit us in the long run. It's stated over and over in the bible as a reminder.
"Do not fear for I am with you; do not be dismayed for I am your God" - Isaiah 41:10
That's something I've been learning lately.
I was so scared about losing friends and leaving behind my everyday routine I had become so used to that I forgot to trust that God knew what he was doing. I'm pretty much two and a half weeks out of school now and God has blessed me with a group of friends whom I have been lucky enough to see and hang out with almost every single day since we graduated. God's reminded me every single day since how loved I am and he gave me the best graduation gift by blessing me with these friends of mine. I'm so looking forward to seeing where God takes us and for the summer adventures we'll take together in next few months. This new chapter of life we're all starting is pretty darn exciting and it's looking like it's going to be a good year ahead.
I'm am forever grateful for this friendship of ours (you lot know who you are ;))